Sunday, January 13, 2008

Looking into these faces...

Do you ever look at those around you and wonder, "What the heck happened to you?" This is not necessarily a bad thing. For example, my cousin is getting engaged. She went through a tough year, and she has returned to God and is seeking his will for her. But it could be a bad thing. I have friends that I just do not know anymore. Seriously, it has not been that long since we have talked, but now they are druggies, sexually promiscuously, alcoholics, and atheists. I look at all of the changes that are going on around me and wonder, "what do people think of what I have become?" Am I the guy that they ask "What went wrong with him?" or do they say "His parents must have done something right." I know that I have my flaws (selfishness, dishonesty, lustful thoughts, pride, laziness, unrighteous anger, and to many more to list) but do people look at me and think that's all that I am, or do they see that I genuinely want to improve in these areas? That would be one of my deepest regrets if that is all they could see of me. I know that my God knows and that is more than sufficient, but if my mother and father thought that I was a hoodlum, I would be hurt. I know that my mother and father don't think this of me, that was simply an example. God, I have so much to change.....
-Chris